似水流年！

 Train to Cologne, Aug. 2005

        最近整理计算机，发现了八年前在德国拍的部分照片。这次算是故地重游，不禁会有些感慨。Giessen小镇的变化不大，尤其在我们目睹了国内各大城市的日新月异之后，越发能够感觉到这里的平静祥和与不疾不徐。物理楼产于1966年的电梯仍旧在服役；楼前楼后奔跑的还是10路和13路的奔驰巴士，半小时一班的时刻点也没有变化；Toom超市一进门的货架摆设稍有不同；市中心的道路已经修好，唯一的天桥上种植的还是当年一样的花草；土耳其店的门口仍旧摆满了10kg大的西瓜，店里的玫瑰花大米比八年前贵了2欧；俄罗斯店的带骨五花肉仍旧是全市最低价：2.45欧/kg；Lidl超市新增加一小段冷藏柜，用来放肉；对了，经常去跑步的森林边上多出来若干栋新的居家小楼；火车站塔楼上的钟还在准确的记载着时间的流逝。。。八年的时间，我能够感受的变化其实就是新增的这几栋小楼和稍微浮高的物价。对于一个城市来讲，着实算不得什么变化。这也符合德国的风格。去年11月份，物理楼前的一级台阶缺了一尺长的一个角，工人们把整段的楼梯用栅栏围起来，昨天我发现那级台阶修好了。

      写到这里我是不是跑题跑得太远了？

      其实，我写这篇博文是因为我看到了上边的这张照片，拍于2005年8月，我目光望去的地方坐着赵老师和李老师，旁边为我拍照的是师兄王宁和贾飞，我们一起搭车去科隆。当年的我不施粉黛，却快乐自信。记得那时候赵老师的体力比我好，一天下来，他还有兴致到处拍照，看看这边再转转那边，而我早就累的找地方坐下，只等回家睡觉了。可是现在他由于疾病可能再也不会来德国了。李老师当年在Giessen摔坏了盆骨，住院治疗之后一个人坐了10个小时的飞机飞回国内，让人佩服。我不得不提的人还有Scheid教授，八年前，他还是理论所的所长，他把我当成一个学生，指导我的科研工作，带我去参加各种学术活动，在生活上帮助我，周末还会开车带我们参观附近的城堡古迹。这次，已经退休的他则常和我讲起他的学生时代，谈到他的女儿和外孙，科研工作上每逢讨论，他一定会强调，这仅是他个人的建议。他本人也由于健康原因不再自己开车，而且答应他的夫人，不再出访其他国家。我不得不说在我凝视着我的照片感叹青春流逝的同时，我更能够感受到，时间对于快要步入暮年的老人来说更加残酷。

      真所谓“物是人非”（宋•李清照《武陵春》词 —— 物是人非事事休，欲语泪先流。）

      Google或者Baidu一下：似水流年，首先出现的就是梅艳芳Anita Mui和哥哥张国荣Leslie Cheung 的《似水流年》，歌是好歌，可是对我来讲还是太凄婉了，再加之他们两个都已是天国的人，所以感觉王菲Faye Wong 的《致青春》更加贴近我的心境。

 似水流年（sì shuǐ liú nián）：流年：光阴。形容时间一去不复返。出自：明·汤显祖《牡丹亭·惊梦》：“则为你如花美眷，似水流年，是答儿闲寻遍，在幽闺自怜。”

Appear in the Uniforum

I appear in the Uniforum, local newspaper of Giessen. They explained to me that presentation of a person normally only occupy a small column. That's enough. I'm not an important person. However, it is too narrow to cut me only, so I hope Prof. Dr. Christian Hamm (new professor of Uni-Giessen and we never met) would not mind to appear in my blog.

I know little about Deutsch (text is Deutsch). However, I can guess (from my poor knowledge of Deutsch) it is a very brief introduction of me, my work and academic relations here. Prof. W. Scheid is quite happy. He said: I have many guests in the past 30 years, you are the first one appears in the newspaper. Several colleagues met me and asked: do you know you are in the newspaper? Yes, of course I know. They came to me and asked for some basic informations and one photo in my office.

It is recommended by someone in the International Office of Uni-Giessen, from where I have got lots of helps before and after I came to Giessen. Once a time, I sat in Ms. Silvia Boide's office (she already moves to other department now). She said to me: you are brave! Yes, she used the word "brave". I was very impressed. I knew she refered to the fact that I came Germany with my three-years-old son together alone. And then I knew, to other people, I was brave. Actually, to me, full of fear. I worried about almost everything at that time. One year later, it proves not bad. My son can speaks Deutsch, has several best friends and several favourite teachers in the kindergarten now. He is happy as I mentioned in the last post. I also spent a pleasant time here.

 

Happiness!

Are you happy?
When you see this question, you must be bothered. Thus a  question must have been asked hundreds of times in your life. Now, you just hate to give an answer. Sometimes, I belive happiness is in your blood no matter you have got what you want or not.

This morning, when I was half-awake, struggled against my sleepiness and tried to open my eyes. Something hit me on my legs heavily. I opened my eye, and saw a bright, healthy and happy face. My son already got up, climbed up to my legs and sat there began to wear his socks, completely happy. I think he was happy no any reason. It is not because he can wear his socks by himself or he can sit on my legs to wear it. He even did not notice one of his feet almost toughing my face. When I asked for a early morning hug to help his mama to get up, he slipped away, still happy!

I just came back from mensa half an hour ago. Today, roast chicken is served there, exactly half a chicken (one leg, one wing, half a body, without head of course) !! The staff there must notice my shocked face since she expressed her sympathy and kindly informed me to pick up a bread for free. "Ja, take it!" this is what she said. More than half a month, I was sick of food. This should be a big news, especial to my sister. To her, I'm addicted to eating always. She often talk about me, when I was a little girl, the first sentence I spoke to my mother, after I opened my eyes in the morning, often was: could I have a candy?  She can not image how a person could so fond of sweets. 

Germany 47-years-old elevator

There are four elevators for three entrances in the institute of theoretical physics, Justus-Liebig-University Giessen. All are produced in 1966. My office is on the third floor. Normally, I take the middle one which is more close to my office.  The old elevator is diligent and has its own habit, that is: it alway climbs up to the 5th floor (the very beginning), then can fulfill its real work. Every morning (actually everytime, morning always mean something), I press the button "3", then the elevator almost alway (around 90% chance) goes up to the 5th floor, then goes down and stops on the 3rd floor. Actually, it is not too bad. it means sometime you can get surprise: it can stop on the 3rd floor exactly when it passed for the first time (around 10% chance). Then, I'm happy. Today would be a lucky day! I had to say I like this old elevator somehow!

This is the oldest elevator I have been in. But I'm not sure whether a age of 47-years-old is really old for a elevator (device). For a man, 47-years-old is still at the most wonderful time in his life.

 

Lunch club seminar: it is not easy to say LOVE YOU

Today's lunch club seminar is given by Prof. Kurt Langfeld in School of Computing and Mathematics, University of Plymouth, UK. He talks about the simulation of cold and dense matter (mainly concerning these two papers PRL e111601 and prd.e114504). His talk is good overall. This is not the piont of this post. I will not comment too much.

I did not often attend the lunch club since most of topic is hadron physics. But okay, actually, I do not mind spend the lunch time in a lecture room to listen to some topic far from mine. But, the pizza provided is really not good: too big, too dry, too much salt. After such a lunch, I will keep drinking all the afternoon, like a cow. Still, there are salad alternative. I ordered salad for three times. Salad tastes better. But, I had to say I'm really a bad luck audience. Whenever I choose salad, the speakers always have such a tiny voice. The low-voice-speaker stands 3 meters away from me whereas the fresh salad's crisp sounds about 10 millimeters away from my ear. Finally, I have had a lunch in the noise of some physics. At the same time, fish is served in the mensa (Lunch club always takes place at fish friday) .

Starting today, there is a new menu for lunch club. The salad is improved with a little bit higher quality, smaller quantity, no more bread attached and 2 Euro higher price. I finished the salad before Prof. Langfeld started his lecture today. So, today's seminar is good except I was hungry all the afternoon, searched food in all the office.

Anyway, if you have interesting in the lunch club seminar in institute of theoretical physics, uni-Giessen, you can check here: Lunch club seminar and go to the 4th floor of the physics building, with a beer if you want, just like Prof. 0_0 today. :-).

Let's start

Eight years ago, when I was a PhD student, my roomate began to blog her Blog. I visited it and feel good. But I decided not. I feared I may engaged too much, and I feared I may engaged too little. Moreover, I prefer to the paper note book. Just like I always read paper books whereas not E-books. I like the old stuff.

On a sudden, the idea came to my mind "yes, I will write my own blog". I guess I needn't give a reason here. Just let's start.

I'm a nuclear physicist, female. Topic here will not be limited on nuclear physics or physics. Here will appear what I see, hear, think,..., all the fun stuff. Enjoy it!